ffkk

kristina and i are the founding and only members of the ffkk - former fat kids klub (for life mutherfuckas!!! *flashing gang sign*).

being fat during the formative years is no cake walk. and as we all know, fat kids love cake.

thank goodness i went to an all girls elementary because if guys were mercilessly teasing me the ways the girls did i think i'd be a menace II society even more than i am now. i'd be in jail or dead. me against the world. the world is fucked up and cold, it's how you take it that makes all the difference. i have an inner anger i can identify and i'm scared of. rage against the machine.

so i loved food and had a problem with not eating it - so sue me. and my skinny counterparts did. they verbally trounced me for having a obvious love affair with food. but how could i blame them, it's survival of the "fittest" after all.

instead i ate all their insults. and it was bitter. it embittered me. and my inner rage, my anger that i can't control and scares even me comes from this. people have been shallow and horrible to me, and this chip on my shoulder is the result. mmm, chips. thug life!!!