2 years of this blog

where i was, where i am now, i would've never guessed or predicted. it kills me dead. in a bad way. i miss blogging. have more to say now then ever. but each time of late i've been writing here has been through tears and sorrow. it hurts. it has to get out someway i suppose. i wonder if it's helping or harming??? it's pretty traumatic and emotional either way. but such is my emotional state currently. such is life. c'est la vie. je nais se pais.