autopilot

substance abuse might be catching up to me like all the medical field says, but i've been here physically but not mentally. i shouldn't blame the substances, my whole life i've been like that just when sugar was my only vice. in flight or fight, one defense they have failed to mention is glaze over. i'll transcend my body and miss what just happened on earth. baffles me and my company when i snap out of the daze and have to ask for the recap. i was there in body but my space cowboy mind was traipsing through Lord knows where. i hope my representative subconscious was on their best behavior.

what's real and what's reality anymore? buddha say, "with our thoughts we shape the world".