sabeshi

all good things must come to an end...i'm dreadfully sad...i've had something to look forward to all year. now it's over :(

a full day of traveling awaits us. we fly high, no lie, you know this. far, far away from the motherland. even though i'm 3 generations removed (sansei) and 3/4ths confirmed japanese (1/4th is m.i.a. - long story), i'm truly a native daughter. just like hawaii has it's aloha spirit, japan has a different spirit. indescribable, but i have it. a combo of the most painfully polite people who are at the same time effortlessly rude. the highest suicide rate of a developed country. there were 3 "accidents" on tokyo trains announced yesterday which holds to the 3 line jumper suicide rates per day average. residents don't blink an eye, but as a gaigin i was shaken up as my imagination flew to dark places from lack of news because it is a common everyday occurrence. how can you be depressed amongst such splendor? so vibrant, yet so morose. i relate to the vivid morbid curiosity. everything is honor code/system here. the descendants of samurai, geisha, ronin etc. flood the streets as life is lived outdoors in the lineal society. a land of paradoxes. a synthetic, genuine society. a place of blinding neon and smiles that warm the heart. *single tear*

we are already planning another trip. backpacking through japan. seems to make more sense then backpacking through europe. my friend and her boyfriend got mugged and he got beat up by a group of teenagers in italy. i wouldn't do the cliche because that crime scared me out of it and lack of convenient rail system. our plan is to get a jr rail pass with 2 light bags so our material possessions won't hold us down like this time. it was a logistical nightmare traveling train to train with these massive suitcases. but we are americans, a young country with much to learn that does things to excess. we'll island hop, and stay where the wind takes us. i can't wait. hopefully we wont wait until the next year of the rat to come here again...

gotta pack then go to the ampm to squirrel away some flan flavored kitkat. then back to sin...